Permission to be a poet

I never thought I could write songs. I always wanted to, and as a teenager I did for a while, but also as a teenager I gave up, thinking I was rubbish and people would roll their eyes at my cheesy cliché songs. I’ve always admired a good lyric, you know when someone manages to nail down a feeling into words in a way where you think - never in a million years would I have thought of that metaphor or comparison or analogy, but it makes complete sense to me – it would always stick with me.

I grew up doing musical theatre, so in all honesty I never had to worry about the whole creating side of things – material would be given to me, I would learn it, and I’d regurgitate it the same way I’d heard it done before. And after 2 years auditioning for West End shows, cruises, pantomimes and anything else you could think of, with all the training under my belt I could possibly need, and not getting anywhere, I thought ‘I’m a bit tired of having to fit into a mould.’

When I was little I was convinced I would grow up to be a famous pop star, I was going to go on Stars In Their Eyes and get scouted and be worldwide by age 15. That didn’t happen. So when I was beginning to consider closing the door to the Musical Theatre world, my first thought was of course 'why don’t I try to be a singer?' And then my second thought was 'oh wait, I’m rubbish at writing songs.'

So when I met Reece, and we started doing cover gigs, and he sent me some demos of his songs, I realised I could totally get away with just singing someone else’s lyrics here! Sorted! But Reece wasn’t going to let me get away with that. I tried to convince him I’d already tried and failed at song writing, but he called my bluff and would sit with a guitar for half an hour telling me to ‘just sing something, give me a melody, first word that comes to your head.’ And eventually, out poured the first verse of Grand Desire.

The layers she digs through Like a red fox in the night She longs to keep herself warm And you succumb to her parasite